Back after...

After starting this blog last year, I fell into a funk that lasted until now. Now, with the new year and all those pesky resolutions still clicking in my brain I have risen and found the keyboard once again.

So, what has been bugging me such that I need to express myself here?

I am currently living in Southern California. My spouse is living in Illinois, and beign away from family and close friends have been taking their toll. I need companionship and affection, and the only way I can find to get them quickly is to hang out at strip clubs, where the women are attractive and very social. Yes, they want money for their trouble, but when I find a girl with both looks and brains, and one that is not so young that she could be my granddaughter, then I do enjoy myself.

And as long as I maintain some moderation while I am there, it is affordable enough for me to visit the same place on occasion. My other fall-back is watching adult dvds and going solo.

Still, my sanity is somewhat intact, but the solitude has caused me to think too much and then revives some of the demons in my soul. Those self-depricating memories where I should have known better, but at the time...

My other solace is in reading other blogs where people are either more screwed up than I am, or bring a sense of realization that I am not alone in my worries. Misery loves company, and there seems to be plenty of it in blog-space.